What are you doing here? Do i know you?

ignore this, it is just a reference list i am making myself for albums

2009-02-08T03:57:07Z

johannesburg @ 2008-11-19T19:08:00

2008-11-20T00:19:44Z

Woo, enrolled for next semester.

AVS 248- Laboratory and Companion Animal Science
AVS 151- History of Veterinary Medicine
AVS 333- Equine Management and Co-op
WLE 230- Wildlife Conservation and Statistical Ecology
BIO 203- Biology of Organisms
CHY 124- Molecular Basis of Chemical Change
MAT 126- Advanced Stats

wheeeeeee i'm excited. i'm in love with this schedule....probably minus the Chem and Math.

And I've actually changed my major, which is funny because it doesn't change much, its just sort of a clerical trick that adjusts the classes i'll be able to take later.

Right now i am an Animal and Veterinary Science major with a Pre-Vet concentration and Equine Studies minor.

But I've switched so next semester I'll officially be a Biology Major with a Pre-vet concentration and two minors- Equine Studies and Wildlife Conservation.

sweeeeeeet. that means instead of taking boring classes about livestock and domestic animals, i'll get to take a lot of equine and wildlife classes. yay! its fun to be able to get around stupid rules and schedules haha.

johannesburg @ 2008-10-03T12:39:00

2008-10-03T16:40:21Z

my god, sarah palin is such a cunt.

the end.

photos of things

2008-09-26T14:41:05Z

first, the meme thing going around.
Take a picture of yourself right now.
Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair - just take a picture.
Post that picture with NO editing.
Post these instructions with the picture.

I was studying for my chem exam. This is my "why does chemistry hate me" face.

The right side of the room. bad picture though...

My bed, covered with random threadless t-shirts that just came in the mail.

Haha, our door says Resident Director. We always get student knocking on our door because they locked themselves out.

Dorm from the outside.

View from room, complete with sketchy rooftop.

Directly behind my dorm is a river. Whee!

Around my dorm. My college is basically in a forest.

Our epic library

And i realized i never posted pictures of my new pretty little car.

The end!

maine

2008-08-30T21:15:01Z

well, i'm at college. in maine. woo.

lets do a list, mm?

the good stuff:
my roommate seems awesome, she's here to be a sports writer
the weather is nice
maine is beautiful
um...

the shitty stuff:
i'm in temp housing, and i don't know when i'm going to be moved into real housing
my classes are all really far away from each other
the campus is huge and confusing
on wednesdays i have 6 classes, straight from 8am to 5pm
their vegetarian food sucks
i'm in the middle of nowhere
there are so many students
they love school football
i got a $50 parking ticket the first day
there is nothing to do
my neighbor is loud
we have no cable
i forgot so much stuff
the bathroom is very far away
there is construction on our dorm

and i honestly cannot remember how i made friends/met people last year. it doesn't help that this dorm is nothing like berklee's. i feel like i'm in a weird hostile with people who don't like me.

i don't want to have to make friends again...its such a laborious process haha. the urge to be a hermit is undeniable.

bunnyyy

2008-08-15T03:21:50Z

here is Jessie, my new bunneh.

ain't she adorable??! she still has limited mobility in her back legs, but hopefully she be able to walk normally soon *crosses fingers*

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^omg!! she's sitting up! its the first time i've seen her sit up on her back legs...yaaaay!

johannesburg @ 2008-08-13T19:10:00

2008-08-14T00:11:53Z

NEWS!!

remember my post about little bunnyfriend? *points down*

wellllll

I ADOPTED HER!

glee

wittle bunny is doing so well. she's even started to have consistent movement in her back legs...she can almost walk now!!! yaaaaaaaay

i will be taking her home tomorrow after work :)

i so 'cited.

johannesburg @ 2008-08-12T23:13:00

2008-08-13T04:20:50Z

at the animal hospital i work at, it seems like there is a sort of rite-of-passage. and this is taking home stray animals. almost everyone has a cat/dog/rodent/bird that was brought in as a stray.

its finally happening to me, but at the worst time. there is this stray bunny that was hit by a car, and he is paralyzed from the shoulders down. x-rays showed no sign of broken bones or damage to the spine/hip. but he is just such an awesome little bunny...he's so cute and someone hit him with their car and just left him to die there.

i want to take him home so badly. he is in the recovering process, and all i want to do is take great care of him, and give him a great home.

he's a little scared of humans, but other than that he's such a sweetheart. he doesn't bite, and he eats like a champ. and he's even started to have some movement in his back legs (yay!!!).

he's got such spunk and personality, and i wuv him to death. he's got fleas and ticks and he poops all over, but i still wuv him.

...but i am going away to school in 3 weeks. i am trying my hardest to get my mom onboard with caring for him, because i really just want him to have a good life.

if no one takes him, he'll most likely be put to sleep because of his 'condition'. he's such a little fighter...he's trying so hard to recover and live a normal bunny life.

it breaks my heart...

johannesburg @ 2008-08-06T20:59:00

2008-08-07T02:05:39Z

there is such drama at my job right now. i hate our new "manager", she's a fucking bitch. all the vet techs are having problems with each other and having screaming fights in front of clients. and graham (head vet) is just trying to stay out of it instead of fixing any of it.

it's getting really tired working there...and even though i only have about 3 weeks left before i go back to school, i've been working 40+ hours, and the stress from all this drama is killing me.

we are like an animal hospital reality show, seriously.

and, did i mention that for some strange and completely random reason, i keep having sex dreams about my boss? graham isn't THAT good looking, and he's somewhat of an asshole. but maybe i like that? lol.

when we're at work and he's in scrubs he looks so clean cut and spiffy and such, but the best is when he comes in on saturday (and i'm the only one there since we are closed on saturday) and he's in like a sleeveless tee and running shorts. yummmmm

haha what is wrong with me? he's 34 and married with two kids. jesus.

oh my god...i'm going to die..

2008-07-28T16:53:51Z

so my schedule was finally put up for the fall semester at UMaine...

um...I'm pretty sure I might die haha.

Monday
8:00am-9am Animal Sciences (Lecture)
10:00am-11am Advanced Economics (Lecture)
2:00pm- 4pm Advanced Biology (Lecture)

Tuesday
8:00am- 9am Advanced Biology (Lab)
9:00am- 10am Social Contexts and Institutions (Lecture)
12:00pm- 1pm Calculus (Lecture)
3:00pm- 5pm Advanced Chemistry (Lecture)

Wednesday
8:00am - 9am Animal Sciences (Lecture)
9:00am- 10am Economics (Lecture)
1:00pm- 3pm Animal Sciences (Lab)
3:00pm - 4pm Advanced Biology (Lecture)

Thursday
8:00am- 9am Advanced Biology (Lab)
9:00am- 10am Social Contexts (Lecture)
12:00pm- 1pm Calculus (Lecture)
3:00- 5pm Advanced Chemistry (Lecture)

Friday
8:00am- 9am Animal Sciences (Lecture)
9:00am- 10am Economics (Lecture)
1:00pm - 3pm Opportunities and Careers (Lecture)
3:00pm- 5pm Community and Research (Lab)

....9 classes....every day starting at 8am....oh dear...

(but is it weird that along with being terrified, i'm a little giddy too? hehe)

johannesburg @ 2008-07-04T20:12:00

2008-07-05T01:21:41Z

i'm.....restless. i guess that's the best word.

i can't wait until i can drive my pretty new red car to Boston in TWO WEEKS to visit kayla and jeff and alex.

i miss my boston friends so much....

i hate glen ellyn. it seems like i've lost all connection that i've ever had with people from highschool...and i really don't like that feeling. i don't like being miserable and having no one to talk to it about, except people who are hundreds of miles away.

i hate that i've sabotaged lots of my friendships senior year. i was such a fucking jerk...i guess i just didn't want to admit that i was extremely unhappy and i have been for years now. and it felt good to push people away and felt even gratifying to hurt people, which i HATE admitting, but its the honest truth.

but i didn't think it would cost me so much in the future.

i don't think i'll be coming home anymore. i'm staying in Maine all school year, and I'll probably find an internship/job up there and get an apartment during the summers.

maybe that way i can just put things behind me and stop beating myself up because people won't forgive me or won't give me a second chance.

johannesburg @ 2008-06-08T20:49:00

2008-06-09T02:02:21Z

YAY! EXCITING THINGS!

I got into the Pre-Vet program at University of Maine! woo indeed. I'll be double majoring in biology and animal/veterinary sciences.

hello to 10 more years of school. ha. but yay i'm doing what i love! wooo

oh, and

1. Name a movie that you have seen more than 10 times.

Finding Nemo

2. Name a movie that you've seen multiple times in the theater.

300

3. Name an actor that would make you more inclined to see a movie.

Ewan McGregor

4. Name an actor that would make you less likely to see a movie.

Adam Sandler

5. Name a movie that you can and do quote from.

Zoolander

6. Name a movie musical that you know all of the lyrics to all of the songs.

Singing in the Rain

7. Name a movie that you have been known to sing along with.

Rent..Moulin Rouge...

8. Name a movie that you would recommend everyone see.

Requiem for a Dream

9. Name a movie that you own.

Robin Hood Men In Tights

10. Name an actor that launched his/her entertainment career in another medium but who has surprised you with his/her acting chops.

Adrian Brody

11. Have you ever seen a movie in a drive-in? If so, what?

Nope...

12. Ever made out in a movie?

Uh...no, the actors usually do that

13. Name a movie that you keep meaning to see but just haven’t yet gotten around to it.

Juno

14. Ever walked out of a movie?

I almost walked out of the new Indiana Jones...i thought it was awful

15. Name a movie that made you cry in the theater.

Brokeback Mountain

16. Popcorn?

I used to a lot..but not now that i know what is in the "butter"

17. How often do you go to the movies (as opposed to renting them or watching them at home)?

hardly ever, really

18. What’s the last movie you saw in the theater?

indian jones and the something of the stupid crystal something lame

19. What’s your favorite/preferred genre of movie?

i have a soft spot for romantic comedies

20. What’s the first movie you remember seeing in the theater?

I really don't know....

21. What movie do you wish you had never seen?

The Ring

22. What is the weirdest movie you enjoyed?

Requiem for a Dream....its so good...but so weird...you want to stop watching but you can't

23. What is the scariest movie you've seen?

28 Days Later...maybe because of the monkeys at the beginning...uggghhh

24. What is the funniest movie you've seen?

Good Burger. haha jk. umm...maybe Fierce Creatures

PS- I love LOST

i keep pretending i don't....but i do. even though i never know what the hell is going on. and it tries my patience constantly.

but god damn, that show is so yummy. (and so is sawyer...)

johannesburg @ 2008-05-26T13:38:00

2008-05-26T18:45:35Z

Booo, freshman year of college is gone.

I reaaallyyy hated leaving Berklee...the dorms were such an amazing place to live. I finally got myself a great roommate 2nd semester, and living at 270 Commonwealth was like the best time of my life.

I will totally miss just being able to walk a few feet in any direction and be able to hang with my good friends. Or chill out in our awesome RA office with the most awesome RA's.

Sigh.

i miss boston.

johannesburg @ 2008-02-19T19:56:00

2008-02-20T01:56:58Z

cuz i'm bored...

1. Pick 15 of your favourite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions to answer!

these are pretty easy, especialy if you know me, because i usually rant about my favorite movies all the time.

1. Seriously, do you like service yourself ten times a day?

2. You pompous, stuck-up, snot-nosed, English, giant, twerp, scumbag, fuck-face, dickhead, asshole.

3. With endless love, we left you sleeping. Now we're sleeping with you. Don't wake up.

4. You lost your arms in battle! But you grew some nice boobs.

5. Too much orca. Did it sound a little orca-ish to you?

6. I have not the heart to tell you. For me the grief is still too near

7. You're going to be bad for business. I can tell.

8. Remember, you come of a proud race. Why, you're a... a pachydoim, and pachydoims don't cry.

9. Rule number three, I can't bring people back from the dead. It's not a pretty picture. I don't like doing it!

10. Nine million terrorists in the world and I gotta kill one with feet smaller than my sister

11. Tuesday night is tofu night, and I'm asking myself "Who here decided that everyone likes tofu in the first place, and what is tofu anyway?"

12. Take car. Go to mum's. Kill Phil - "Sorry." - grab Liz, go to the Winchester, have a nice cold pint, and wait for all of this to blow over.

13. You know what I think, Ray? I think this autism is a bunch of shit! Because you can't tell me that you're not in there somewhere!

14. But, John. But if the Pirates of the Caribbean breaks down, the pirates don't eat the tourists.

15. Must go faster. Must go faster! Must go faster! Go, go, go, go!

ummm

2008-01-23T00:30:06Z

dude....heath ledger is dead.....wtf

this is just unacceptable

whoa long time gone

2007-12-16T03:55:35Z

haven't posted in a long time, mainly because everything i say won't be understood since the people who read this don't know anyone in boston.

i've been working like crazy trying to finish final projects and studying for written finals. not to mention practice for my proficiency audition for private instruction.

i'm getting rather comfortable here in boston, and i'm glad i've decided to come back to berklee next semester even though i won't be there next year.

there's a boy here who makes me extremely jealous. he's those one-in-a-million who fit the part of the perfect love story. he has an amazing love back home and i couldn't be happier for him, but i also can't help but wonder why there can't be two of him. or why there isn't someone who loves me so deeply and passionately like he loves his girl back home.

but he makes living here so much easier. he's amazing and i thank the heavens that i have him here with me to be a steady rock. also, my roommate is moving out to an apartment next semester and has started to pack up her stuff. i'm completely fine with this, ecstatic really, because she's turned out to be a very mean/childish/immature person and i can't stand having her negative effect lingering around me.

my friend from across the hall is moving in with me next semester, so that'll be amazing. i'm really happy about having a stable living situation when i come back. we get along great and she's very similar to me, not to mention a genuinely nice person.

oh, i totally forgot to mention..

i'm not coming home for winter break.

apparently i'm going to china with my mom because she's running a conference there. so i will be very MIA this winter. i basically leave for beijing the day i get back to chicago, and i come back right before i leave again for boston.

i'm excited, but at the same time it's sort of a drag. i really wish i could just settle down at home like everyone else is going to do. it looks like Spring Break will be the first time since August that i'll be home for more than a couple of days...

well i'm off to study. i had finals this week and more next week. i fly home the 22nd...phew that seems like a long way

peace

go red sox?

2007-10-29T23:48:20Z

so the red sox won the world series...

OMG IT WAS CRAZY I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE.

yea...i live right by fenway park. i went and ran around and it was the craziest thing i have every seen in my life. literally thousands of people screaming and running around and all the cars were honking and the police were everywhere! and the SWAT team came with their guns and shields, and cars were being tipped over and the whole city was going CRAZY

okay, i have to admit, it was really awesome. i've never seen anything like it.

well basketball season starts this week. too bad i have frickin midterms. ahhhhh i've been studying so much.

alrighty. off for coffee. for the fourteenth billion time.

as if i didn't already hate baseball enough

2007-10-25T21:01:26Z

so a Utah/Lakers game was cancelled tonight, and so the Phoenix/Denver game is being televised instead.

AWESOME, RIGHT??!!!

...no.

why?

because i live in Boston. right by Fenway. The Red Sox Nation. and since the red sox are in the world series now, and since game 2 is tonight, the TV downstairs will be occupied by crazy people all night watching THAT game.

that is at 8pm. the Suns game is at 10pm.

lets hope someone (and no, i don't care who) wins quickly so that i can watch at least part of my frickin game.

.....

haha YES

2007-10-22T21:25:21Z

and now for your viewing pleasure....mwahaha

SEXY

SWEATY

SATISFIED

CUTE!!!!

FLEXIBLE? yum

INJURED???!!!

SERVIN'

SLICIN'

EXHAUSTED

TEH WINNAR

CHAMPION

IT'S MY TROPHY! MIIINEE

VOGUE ;)

johannesburg @ 2007-10-15T19:42:00

2007-10-15T23:55:03Z

everything is really different here. it was nice at first, but now i just miss being around people who understand me even the slightest.

when other people here say they are unhappy its always about how hard the classes are or how much homework they have or how much they have to practice. but for me classes are fine, homework is fine, practicing is fine. its how other people here act that bothers me.

like so what if i want to do my homework on a friday night? people act like its a sin to not be out partying every night. and i'm sorry if i don't do pot. you can go be a fucking stoner with your stoner friends. i get so bored with drinking myself silly every weekend, its completely lost its appeal.

and i can't do music as a career, i just hate how i already realize how much i dislike singing now. i'm not competitive enough to use singing as a means of getting an income.

this whole school is like a big game of who can top who. its a constant battle to see who can show off the most. and it seems like its always a struggle between intrumentalists and singers. yet all the other singers here are r+b/jazz/pop and i'm the only classical singer i know of here. so it seems like its a constant struggle between me and everyone else.

being a musician means nothing. people don't seem to understand that. you're not helping other people, you're not making a difference in the world; you're only helping yourself. its a showcase of you, showing off, day in and day out. thats it.

i can't help but wonder why i'm not doing something beneficial. why i'm not doing something respectable, something that helps other people, that leaves you a better person.

i realize that i love singing too much to do it as a career. kissing ass and showing up other people shouldn't be in the equation.

huh...

2007-10-07T01:34:01Z

its so funny that i'm sitting here on a saturday night right smack dab in the middle of boston and i'm not out partying.

who knew being sober was so boring.

i guess it doesn't help that everyone is home for the weekend?! wtf, for serious.

and last week i suddenly realized that i had become a smoker. and not like before, where i smoked occasionally. i realized that i'm a legit smoker. since when did i do a pack a day?

so i quit. oooooh so cold turkey. its been a week. holy shit mother fucker.

before it was so easy to quit because i didn't do it so regularly.

but now i'm so......antsy. nervous. fidgety. pace-y. i'm a wreck.

i have even considered dipping. uuhhhh.....yeah. these are desperate times. fucking travis.

so anyway. i miss my ex.

i'm a wreck. i'm not sad or unhappy or anything. just a weird wreck of a thing. yeah.

johannesburg @ 2007-09-05T21:24:00

2007-09-06T01:28:32Z

music college is haaard

its less lalala la la singing and more spelling chords C#-7(b5), GbMaj7, and A(sus4) in the root position

....and identifying the difference between E phrygian and C# Locrian...

...and creating voicings for IVMaj7 DbMaj7 in an inversion, hybrid, and polychord..

these are apparently the basics

johannesburg @ 2007-08-28T19:59:00

2007-08-29T01:00:57Z

god dammit. my crush has a girlfriend. how do i not pick up on these things? fuck.

all my fun is gone.

johannesburg @ 2007-08-27T21:25:00

2007-08-28T02:35:33Z

just got back from california/mexico a couple of days ago. the weather in tijuana was sooooooo nice. san diego was lovely as well. i actually tanned! sweet

many people seem to think it's hilarious, but i think owen wilson trying to commit suicide is rather sad. poor guy.

anyway, i leave for college in 5 days. pretty scary shit. i'm not in the least bit packed.

oh, and in leiu of basketball being in the offseason, i've become addicted to tennis (mens of course, womens tennis is pretty lame). i do believe roger federer is the most amazing athlete i've ever seen, with the exception of nash.

he's just so dashing on the court. and it doesn't hurt that he's the best in the world at it. yum.

work is sort of suffocating me. while atempting to give a dog his diebetes medication today, he bit me rather hard on the wrist. this is the 4th time this month i've been badly bitten by a large dog, and it's getting sort of old.

the ill, abused, and aggresive animals are by far outweighing the cute, fluffy, fun animals. working in an animal hospital gets hard to deal with sometimes.

johannesburg @ 2007-08-13T22:47:00

2007-08-14T03:23:29Z

so i got my dorm assignment today! kind of scary. i'm room 213 on Commonwealth Avenue. Which is sort of right next to Fenway Park. too bad i'm not much of a red sox fan...

my roommate seems really nice though, so thats a plus. however she does like john mayer and fall out boy...hm...maybe i can overlook that..

(you'd think i'd ease up on john mayer since he went to my college...but no)

im horrified about not having cable at college. not because of stupid cable shows, but because i don't know how i'll handle not being able to watch basketball games. the last time i can remember not watching basketball games was around the age of 10. thats around the time the bulls were good i suppose.. things might just start to really suck once my fantasy world is taken away.

hm. now i just have to find the time to freak out about placement auditions and exams the week i move in.

damn.